I Loved You Before I Ever Knew You

Seven years ago the Lord placed a desire in my heart when He spoke so gently but firmly “children in Africa.” Since that time, I have waited for his exact and perfect timing to birth the desires He placed in my heart.

baby on porch

Coming to Africa is like experiencing birthing pains. The Lord places a desire in your heart. You wait and you prepare, thinking you know what is ahead, but not fully comprehending what the experience will hold. As you prepare physically, emotionally, and spiritually, you become filled with emotions.


The awaited day arrives and the labor is much harder than you expected.


The delivery process begins as you long to embrace what The Lord has for you. As the newborn baby is placed in your arms you take in everything about the beautiful country you have longed for.

newborn in arms

Not wanting to miss anything, you study the people and the land with all your senses. You gaze upon His creation, memorizing every detail of Africa, fearing that you will forget this moment. You close your eyes and hear the sounds of your new love that you hold so closely. You breathe in the smell of this new life called Uganda while it embraces you as you whisper, “Praise The Lord I am here.”

running with leaves

This gift you have been given will soon be placed in the arms of the One who created it, trusting and knowing that He will meet the needs of His child. He will love, nurture, and train this country in the way it should go. You know that The Lord loves this child more than you do.

baby in smock dress

You prepare your heart to leave knowing yet again that the pain to come is real. It is so deep your heart will break and will never be the same after this experience. Nothing can prepare you as you leave your heart in the hands of His beautiful people and you continue to walk by faith, assured that it will be well cared for in your absence.

Let the children come children at the fence

You speak the words as you walk away from your child as it says, “Thank you for loving us.”




As in this last Christmas season was meditating about the Steadfast love of our Heavenly Father and our Lord Jesus Christ, am seeing that it is still a big challenge for us and we need to pray always the Holy Spirit to help us for sure. As I was thinking about the humble way JESUS was born on this planet, I wondered why God could give His only begotten Son to come and die for the sins of people like me who was completely very far from Him. We were enemies of His will and always walking the opposite direction from Him, but the more our sins against Him increased the more He loved us to the point of dying for us.

Apostle Paul says in Romans 5:6-8:

 For when we were still without strength, in due time Christ died for the ungodly.  For scarcely for a righteous man will one die; yet perhaps for a good man someone would even dare to die.  But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Much more then, having now been justified by His blood, we shall be saved from wrath through Him.  For if when we were enemies we were reconciled to God through the death of His Son, much more, having been reconciled, we shall be saved by His life.  And not only that, but we also rejoice in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received the reconciliation.

After loving us all this much He again is requesting us to love one another the same way He loved you.

John 15:12:

This is My commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you.

DSC_7054As we celebrate the birth of our Lord Jesus and also claim that we are Christians, do we really understand very well this Steadfast love in which we were saved and also asked to give out to others?!!!

This is the biggest question which every Christian must ask him/her self as we start walking this year.

Are you finding it very difficult to love those who are against you? Are you completely pressed down because of those who have deliberately hurt you and never bothered even to say sorry but they are enjoying whatever they are doing against you? Even they are planning to do more against you?? Your only closed friend also turned against you is now doing what you don’t like? Just the same way He loved us, this is the same way He is requesting us to love always remember this beloved.


Our Lord paid the price to reconcile us with our Heavenly Father, but the price to reconcile with one another, we are the one to pay for it. That is why JESUS said that we need to love those who do not love us.

Mathew 5:43-48:

 “You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ But I say to you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who spitefully use you and persecute you,  that you may be sons of your Father in heaven; for He makes His sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the just and on the unjust. For if you love those who love you, what reward have you? Do not even the tax collectors do the same? And if you greet your brethren only, what do you do more than others? Do not even the tax collectors do so? Therefore you shall be perfect, just as your Father in heaven is perfect.”

We surely need to cry to God for this Steadfast love to be in our hearts. Let us pray that we enter into labor pains and produce reconciliation in Jesus name. I know that it is painful which they have done to you but unless you choose to forgive and reconcile again the pain will remain fresh. Choosing to forgive is the greatest way which quickly takes away the pain out of us.

We are in many troubles in this world because instead of people choosing to reconcile, they do revenge thinking that revenge will composite the pain they have passed through. But not knowing they are adding more pain to themselves. 

Our Lord Jesus advises us in Matthew 5: 21-26 that: 

 “You have heard that it was said to those of old, ‘You shall not murder, and whoever murders will be in danger of the judgment.’ But I say to you that whoever is angry with his brother without a cause shall be in danger of the judgment. And whoever says to his brother, ‘Raca!’ shall be in danger of the council. But whoever says, ‘You fool!’ shall be in danger of hell fire. Therefore if you bring your gift to the altar, and there remember that your brother has something against you,  leave your gift there before the altar, and go your way. First be reconciled to your brother, and then come and offer your gift.  Agree with your adversary quickly, while you are on the way with him, lest your adversary deliver you to the judge, the judge hand you over to the officer, and you be thrown into prison. Assuredly, I say to you, you will by no means get out of there till you have paid the last penny.

It is my prayer that whoever is still struggling with reconciliation process will receive the strength to forgive and forget in Jesus name.  

It is my prayer that we are all given the potential to keep this steadfast love to one another. Let God deal with that pain inside you and heal all the wounds which are still fresh in your heart. It is a shame to see Christians divided up because of unforgiving. I am praying that every area of your life will be fully fixed by the mighty hand of God.

It is time to forget the past and press on forward to our destiny. Enough is enough, it is time to raise and put the word of God into practice; not just read it or listeners but doers.

In Jesus name, Amen.

Pastor Emmy



Spending some time in prayer around the first of December, I found myself asking the Lord to teach me how to worship Him in Spirit and in Truth, the way the Father is seeking for us to worship Him.

John 4:23-24

“But the hour is coming, and now is, when the true worshipers will worship the Father in Spirit and Truth; for the Father is seeking such to worship Him.

God is Spirit, and those who worship Him must worship in Spirit and Truth.

The LORD through His Spirit showed me something unusual as I was praying. It was an X lit up against a black background.Since then the Spirit has been teaching and revealing to me more and more and more and more how we need to see the X in the right light because night is coming and without receiving the Truth/Jesus/the Light of the world, things are going to get very dark. Jesus wants us to “Get Him” and to realize that He is with us and speaks to us Xpressly by His Spirit in many ways!


X=Kiss    in XOXO

We often put Kisses and hugs at the end of a letter, email, or text to emphasize our love for a person.

A kiss has been a sign of affection and sincerity or TRUTH.

X was commonly used to seal letters in early history to verify it’s contents and authenticity.

“Sealed with a kiss”.


Proverbs 24:35

He who gives an honest

answer gives a kiss on the lips.


 As I meditated on the truth being conveyed with a kiss I was struck with the TRUTH and became truly sick as I realized my Jesus was betrayed with a kiss.

But that kiss lacked the Truth.

The ultimate slap in the face and rejection of our Lord Jesus. Who came to give Himself for us.

He wanted then and still desires now, to give us a loving relationship with the Father through the Spirit.

The victory came on the cross when He Xchanged the lie for the X of unconditional LOVE.

devil= liar=twister of Truth


The LORD who is the One True Living God wants us to dig in deep into Him and anchor our lives in the TRUTH=JESUS.


 X=CHI – a Greek letter

X=CHI=Christ the Anointed One

John 14:6

Jesus said to him, “I am the way, the truth and the Life. No one comes to the Father eXcept through Me.


 Let’s admit it.

We don’t know the X like we think we do.

We want to x out our enemies.

We want to x out the Word in the Bible when we don’t think it applies to us.

We want to fight and defend our lives and train ourselves to take xtreme measures.

But wimpy ways

don’t add up to anything for any of us.

There is a better Way that makes us strong inside.


Says pray for your enemy. But to pray, you have to understand them by understanding the

X of the matter.

We need to X=kiss Xs’ feet. Those beautiful feet that walked straight to the cross for my xxxs.

eXamine the whole X of His Word and believe and receive the X into our whole beings by doing the X.

X is that X desires for the whole world to know He loves them and died that all might live.

Who’s lying to the world anyway?


When we hold onto our life in fear, we x it.

When we lose it for X

He multiplies it back to us eXponentially!


God is watching over His X to perform it!

God says, “Run to me not to your chariots

(Xhausting measures).”

God says, “I am your Mighty Fortress, your Strong Tower and Xuberant HOPE.”

Fear (Honor, reverence) Me and I will show you the

X that will set you free!

Trust X and I will bless you and strengthen you.

 Generation x can become

Generation Xtraordinary

simply by

opting to x out of this world’s lies and yield to X in

their lives!

Oh yes, eXploits (heroic feats – Daniel 11:32) done

in Jesus’ Name!

Talk about Xcitement!

Talk about Xgames!

Talk about

Living for the X!

My beloved X friends,

Xcercise your hearts and minds…

Let X  Xchange the lies for the X!!!

All smiles XOXOs,



Psalm 85:10

Mercy and truth have met together;

Righteousness and peace have kissed.